today im feeling... normal.
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
Thursday, 12 August 2010
nothing makes me smile like you do.
I just want to be happy!
I say this to myself and those around me quite often but the honest truth is I don’t know how to make myself happy! On paper I have a lovely life, I see the terrible actions and events taking place all around the world and I feel terrible for not being happy and contented with my life.
i want excitement.
i feel like i’m lost and don’t know what i want. It doesn’t help that the only answer i can give myself is that ‘I just want to be happy!’ I just get anxious, worrying about self-image, where to go, letting people down, giving up what I’ve got….I just don’t want that feeling anymore.
am i happy?
to you, who knows i love them, i am sorry.
I say this to myself and those around me quite often but the honest truth is I don’t know how to make myself happy! On paper I have a lovely life, I see the terrible actions and events taking place all around the world and I feel terrible for not being happy and contented with my life.
i want excitement.
i feel like i’m lost and don’t know what i want. It doesn’t help that the only answer i can give myself is that ‘I just want to be happy!’ I just get anxious, worrying about self-image, where to go, letting people down, giving up what I’ve got….I just don’t want that feeling anymore.
am i happy?
to you, who knows i love them, i am sorry.
Sunday, 8 August 2010
if all else fails, call granny.
me again, i have realised im slightly slackin' in writing often, i apolagise for my absence but im back, and i have soooooo many things to write about, but ill save them for one rainy day.
its been three weeks into the holidays. its becoming a tedious cycle of staying up till the break of dawn, waking up as the working day is coming to a close.. i want to do something spontanious.. something out of the ordinary! i want my adreniline pumping, i want to be sky high..i want to visit my granny!
there is nothing like a phonecall from my granny. its a thing that instantly warms my heart, with words and wisdom wrapping themselves around you in an embrace. shes so terribly wonderful. granted, when shes angry watch out, that woman can grasp grudges so tightly they cant breathe. shes no doubt the most amazing woman in my life. shes the one who raised me as a baby, and shes the one i look up to.
and its times like these, when you feel you have no-one, and i mean NO-ONE to depend on, all i want is for my granny to hug me and tell me everythings going to be alright..
i hate the fact shes alone. i hate the fact shes so far away. i hate the fact i see her so litte. i hate the fact im growing up. i hate the fact shes growing old. i hate the fact i love her so much..
never leave me, joanna gannon.
its been three weeks into the holidays. its becoming a tedious cycle of staying up till the break of dawn, waking up as the working day is coming to a close.. i want to do something spontanious.. something out of the ordinary! i want my adreniline pumping, i want to be sky high..i want to visit my granny!
there is nothing like a phonecall from my granny. its a thing that instantly warms my heart, with words and wisdom wrapping themselves around you in an embrace. shes so terribly wonderful. granted, when shes angry watch out, that woman can grasp grudges so tightly they cant breathe. shes no doubt the most amazing woman in my life. shes the one who raised me as a baby, and shes the one i look up to.
and its times like these, when you feel you have no-one, and i mean NO-ONE to depend on, all i want is for my granny to hug me and tell me everythings going to be alright..
i hate the fact shes alone. i hate the fact shes so far away. i hate the fact i see her so litte. i hate the fact im growing up. i hate the fact shes growing old. i hate the fact i love her so much..
never leave me, joanna gannon.
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